The Self-Sabotaging Spirit

This is taken from an upcoming blog at my sister site thephoenixunleashed.com

January 18

I am sure most of us have experienced an ah ha moment at one time or another.   I experienced one just this week.   As I mentioned in my blog My Personal Mission Statement, I am participating in the 31 Day Reset Challenge.  Well doing this 31 Day Reset Challenge I nearly sabotaged my dreams without even realizing it.

On Day 12 of the challenge we were instructed to write our Life Narrative.  Feel free to take a look at my Life Narrative. Our Life Narrative basically comprises of telling our story about the life we want in present tense as if it is happening.  I look at it as putting it out into the universe.

During this challenge I shared that my website (meaning this one) is up and running at full capacity.  I stated that it was attracting thousands of visitors per day.  What made this interesting was the fact that I nearly did not write that amount down.

Here’s a breakdown of what I said.

If you look back at my life narrative there is a point where I say, “My website is up and running at full capacity.  It is very successful and attracting thousands of visitors daily.”  Well believe it or not while writing that statement I nearly downplayed my ability.  At first I wrote numerous visitors, then I wrote hundreds, then I changed it to thousands and then I changed it back to hundreds.  You know why?  In just a split second I told myself that I would never reach thousands of visitors per day and that hundreds would be more realistic.  But a few seconds later I found myself saying, “Hold up.  Why are you limiting yourself before you even start?” I immediately changed it back to thousands.

I then asked myself, “Why can’t I reach thousands of visitors per day?  That’s not impossible.  In fact it is going to happen.”

Wow!  That was a strong example of how we can sabotage our dreams before we even start.  I guess I caught the case of the Lizard Brain.

Now this has me wondering how many times I have sabotaged other projects, goals and dreams.   How close was I near the finishing line, but failed to cross it because I told myself that it could not be done?  How many times have I said that no one will read it, no one is interested and there is too much competition?  Let’s just say too many times.

People let’s not sabotage what we want to achieve.  Remember the possibilities are endless.  We will never know what we can succeed at, unless we make an effort to at least try.

~El